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How does hard work make me feel fulfilled?

Yesterday I added the Day One widget to my home screen. Among the variations available I’ve chosen the widget that gives me a writing prompt every day. The idea is that I hope to be tempted to keep on the journaling habit if I keep seeing this every time I unlock my phone.

This is the first entry. 

Prompt: How does hard work make me feel fulfilled?

I haven’t thought about this in a while. When I started my own business, I was convinced that that the more I worked, the happier I will be. But now I have realized that it’s not the case. I’ve realised that I need time to do other things, too. Most importantly, I need time to do nothing.

So, I don’t try to work as much as I can anymore. I simply try to do my best each day. And sometimes, I fail. 

I feel guilty when that happens. I suppose that’s inevitable. We’re trained to measure our self worth solely based on our work output, for so long, that anything other than this framing feels untrue. So when I procrastinate, I feel bad.

But I do it anyway.

It’s not so bad to the point where it has become a habit and I’ve become a lazy slob, but I do it every now and then.

So, in a way, I think hard work makes me feel fulfilled because when I know I’ve done my share, I don’t feel guilty. I feel like I’ve earned the things I have. I suppose the trick is to not overwork myself, but at the same time, keep doing what needs to be done so that I feel like I’ve contributed.

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Music

Music for Headphones

After much deliberation, I’ve decided to share my own personal “headphone mix.” This is a playlist of songs that I have found sounds great on headphones. I’ve chosen songs––from the very few genres I listen to––that have a generally wide soundstage.

The list starts with The Beatles. (Of course.) Neil Young is in there, and Pearl Jam, The Who, David Bowie, Jeff Buckley and Big Thief, which is probably my favourite modern band.

The playlist is not done yet, it will grow as I discover more songs. For now, it looks like this:

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August 2020 in Music

My music taste doesn’t seem to have changed a lot in the past month. I’ve got The Beatles, Pearl Jam, R. E. M. and David Bowie in the list. Yet again.

What I’ve discovered is that there are many artists in this limited number of genres I listen to that I am yet to discover. Just yesterday I found a new supergroup, Them Crooker Vultures, who’ve put out just one record. The group consists of Dave Grohl, John Paul Jones and Josh Homme – what a lineup. I think this month’s most listened songs list will have a couple of tracks of theirs in it.

For now, enjoy this playlist of August’s best.

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Writing

I had a discussion with some friends today about writing.

I believe it has given me a momentary motivation boost to get back to this habit I have wanted for so long to cultivate.

Currently, I have three outlets I can use: my journal, this “micro” blog on my website, and my main blog. The first is private. Only I will know the contents of what goes into my journal. The microblog and the main blog are public.

I have the same plan I had–but failed to implement–before. I will write everyday on my journal, and take things I think are worth sharing to my microblog. These are bound to be half-formed thoughts, so they can’t ego on the main blog yet. And then, occasionally, when I have something that I really want to say, I will write that on the main blog as a full length post.

This is starting today, with this journal entry. Let’s see how long I can keep up. 

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July 2020 in Music

Now that I’ve pulled the plug on a $20/month Tidal Hifi plan, I find myself listening to music almost every day. Partly because lossless audio sounds really good on my headphone setup, and partly because Tidal is doing wonders for me with music discovery.

I started using Last.fm to track my listening habits last month, too. So, with compilations from Tidal and Last.fm data combined, I want to see what kind of music I spend time listening to.

Since I started using the service on July 12, Last.fm says I’ve listened to 625 songs within the month. There is also a breakdown of the genres of music I listened to. If you know me, this shouldn’t come as a surprise.

There’s a complete set of stats for the month here.

And for your listening pleasure, here’s a playlist of my most played songs on Tidal.