Journal Snippets

Which topics would you like to be more informed about?

Every topic! I would like to know as much as it is possible to know.

But, realistically, I would like to be better informed about science. I have always been fascinated by science but I never was any good at it in an academic capacity. Right now, my interest in science is not for any academic purpose, but rather for my own curiosity. I like knowing how (certain) things work. I would particularly like to delve deeper into physics.

I would also like to be better informed about politics, especially in my own country. A few years ago my reasoning for this would have been so that I could choose a side. But now, I see the futility in picking sides. Still, being in the center requires that I have an understanding about how the world works politically, because being in the center shouldn’t mean being indifferent. 

Journal Snippets

Do you want to live past 100? Why or why not?

I don’t. I think it’s the immediacy of death that makes life interesting. 

I can make a reasonable guess as to what I would be doing in the next few years of my life. I can make a plan for, say, next 20 years, and hope that everything would go well. Beyond that, I have no idea what I would be doing or where I’d be.  Given that, it’s almost impossible to think where life would take me if I were to live to a hundred. I would be happy with 75. 

I can’t imagine what life would be like with a failing body and mind. Even if by some miracle if we’re able to slow the ageing process, or upload our brains to a computer to live forever, I think things would be quite boring after you’ve lived as long as 100. I would need some rest then. 


September 2020 in Music

September was a good month. Things did shake up a little bit when I discovered that the Tidal player has been applying DSP on their playback. I’m still using the service, but I’m actively considering moving from Tidal to Deezer. I am now extensively testing Deezer Hifi with my measly audio equipment. I plan to write about the whole process on my main blog soon.

For now, here’s a playlist of September’s best.
Journal Snippets

How does hard work make me feel fulfilled?

Yesterday I added the Day One widget to my home screen. Among the variations available I’ve chosen the widget that gives me a writing prompt every day. The idea is that I hope to be tempted to keep on the journaling habit if I keep seeing this every time I unlock my phone.

This is the first entry. 

Prompt: How does hard work make me feel fulfilled?

I haven’t thought about this in a while. When I started my own business, I was convinced that that the more I worked, the happier I will be. But now I have realized that it’s not the case. I’ve realised that I need time to do other things, too. Most importantly, I need time to do nothing.

So, I don’t try to work as much as I can anymore. I simply try to do my best each day. And sometimes, I fail. 

I feel guilty when that happens. I suppose that’s inevitable. We’re trained to measure our self worth solely based on our work output, for so long, that anything other than this framing feels untrue. So when I procrastinate, I feel bad.

But I do it anyway.

It’s not so bad to the point where it has become a habit and I’ve become a lazy slob, but I do it every now and then.

So, in a way, I think hard work makes me feel fulfilled because when I know I’ve done my share, I don’t feel guilty. I feel like I’ve earned the things I have. I suppose the trick is to not overwork myself, but at the same time, keep doing what needs to be done so that I feel like I’ve contributed.


Music for Headphones

After much deliberation, I’ve decided to share my own personal “headphone mix.” This is a playlist of songs that I have found sounds great on headphones. I’ve chosen songs––from the very few genres I listen to––that have a generally wide soundstage.

The list starts with The Beatles. (Of course.) Neil Young is in there, and Pearl Jam, The Who, David Bowie, Jeff Buckley and Big Thief, which is probably my favourite modern band.

The playlist is not done yet, it will grow as I discover more songs. For now, it looks like this: